Post Junior Year

Haven't been a great sem

This was a pretty chill semester with only 3 finals but throughout the semester I was having trouble with regards to finding internship. After all, I am leaving for Taiwan for Business Study Mission but I was still unable to secure an internship. I went for 3 interviews and didn't succeed in all of them. Whereas when I talk to my friends, they were telling me ya this big firm interviewed me and I rejected them to go another bigger one.

It was when I started to question myself. Whether my past internship was good enough. Whether I got it through a fluke. Whether was it because of my grades a lot of other internships don't appear on my school portal. Whether my lack of participation in CCA let to this dismal states. I was thinking a lot of things while juggling intensive groupwork with certain group mates that don't put in their 100% into the project. It was really disastrous for me this semester as even after finals end I couldn't find an internship.

Not being happpy doesn't make you unhappy

However, I stumbled upon this comic here. It really made me think. Whether I was truly unhappy by constantly comparing myself to others. It was really thought provoking as I didn't really think of myself being depressed or whatsoever. It was just that everyone was moving on with life. Everyone was sure of what they want to do in the future. Be it luxury retailing or supply chain management. And down here my interests does not really entail earning big bucks. That's when I realised, what the hell was I doing.

Why was I applying to these internships at top companies when what I wanted to do is totally different? I am really interested in social entrepreneurship and welfare organisations but all the internships I applied to were big firms with multinational operations. During my short 3 years at university, I have lost track of what I truly wanted to do. I wanted to help people. The internship at Pools wasn't wasted but opened my eyes to the bigger social issues at work here. I was priviledged enough to not experience these troubles in my short lifespan and I will do my best to help others all over the world.

That's why I got really lucky and received a call for interview next Tuesday. I really hope I get it even though the location is really far. But what is life without helping other people?

Cheers.

I really hope I get it

MHR out.